Let me start this blog by stating that by my thoughts alone, I am sure a movie can be made. My thoughts can spiral out of control and either calm me or terrify me, the latest being the latter.
My day is so busy from the very moment I open my eyes; I am already thinking of my routine and what I need to tidy first, what the kids will have for breakfast, what they will wear, they mustn’t forget to brush their teeth, pack extra clothes, oh gosh, extra murals too! All the while, trying to get out of bed and tripping over a barbie and pony that was left on the floor next to my bed, because I had to “look after them” during the night.
Phew, and that’s just the first 5 minutes of my day. Already my thoughts have allowed me to be discouraged. But wait, that’s not all, then I must break the news of the girls being at school and aftercare all day because I have to work until 4pm thus only fetching them thereafter…right on track… MELTDOWN!
As we shuffle through our rushed morning routine to get everyone out the door with all their shoes and clothes on, someone needs to use the toilet. I mean, timing is of the essence here. I am about to be late for work, hubby trying to help and do his part, kids now sneaking toys into school bags. Please tell me that I am not alone.
Anyway, you are probably thinking what the point of all this is. I will get there I promise.
After everyone is on the merry way, children now at school, I’m at work with a cup of coffee and then… I am alone with my thoughts yet again. Did I give the girls an extra kiss goodbye like they asked? Another hug? How has our rush of a morning made them feel and has it set the tone for their day? Feeling like a terrible mom at this point. Instead of guilting myself into a complete slump, I decide to rather just pray it off. Pray and listen to worship, and ask God to take control of the day, not only my day, but my children and my hubbies too. Yes, I do feel a better, but I still have this little ache in my heart, worrying myself about how they are feeling.
The day passes and its time to pick them up, all I want to do is hold them tight and tell them sorry for the crazy morning, but before I can even do that, they run and leap into my arms, give me the biggest hug and tell me how they have missed me and then in a flash I have a drawing shoved in my face, literally, that they made specially for me at school. The point I am trying to make here is that children are resilient, yes, we need to be mindful of how we act, what we say and how we live life in front of them because they are watching us intently and learning from us, but Moms, we are human, and we are allowed to have days where we just feel like all the eggs have fallen out of the basket and we are left to clean up the mess. Don’t guilt yourself, if you are giving your children the love they deserve and the attention that they so need then don’t feel bad for when those days come that make you feel as if your entire way of parenting is a complete hit and miss. YOU ARE DOING A GOOD JOB MOM AND DAD.
These little people don’t care about how much money we earn, the variety of cereal they get to choose from in the morning or how many dresses they get to choose from in their wardrobe. They just simply want us, their parents, the ones that make them feel safe and loved. Secure and special.
So go home today, give them the biggest hug and kiss. Sit with them a while and play with them, play barbies and horses, cars and trains. Read a story, it’s not about the quantity but the quality of time that you spend with them. Make it count, they grow so fast, and you never know when the last time they ask you to sit with them will be. One day, it will all just stop because they are too big and its embarrassing to play with Mommy.
I wish I could bottle up these crazy mornings and keep them to relive one day, because it’s these crazy mornings that I am going to miss most when my girls grow up.
“Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
“And the Child grew and became strong; he was filled with wisdom, and the grace of God was on him.”
Luke 2:40
With Love,Your Sister
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