The famous words, “It happens for a reason,” is not words that are comforting for me. I often used these words, but when my husband was murdered these words were far from comforting. I could not understand why he was taken and it is probably something I never will understand. My only comforting thought is that I believe God was with my husband throughout the ordeal and that now He is with His loving Father in Heaven.
It is very challenging and hard to try and understand why my husband, why me, why us? The questions of what if, what if things were different that night, would this still have taken place? Would the result still be the same? Asking myself these questions and entertaining them in my mind, immobilizes me and keeps me stuck in a place of confusion, longing for my husband and for things to be the way that they used to. I know that it is okay to go down this road, but if I linger here too long, I know that I won’t be able to heal and move forward with this life that God has given me.
How do I focus, how do I move forward and stop questioning? Learning to find purpose in all this pain is what keeps me going. Finding my purpose and a purpose in this season, gives me hope and helps me to hold onto something. It helps me to shift my focus not on what has happened but on how to move forward.
For me finding purpose has been my little girls. They are now my focus and my purpose is to guide them, love them and show them Jesus and how to walk with Him. My purpose is to help them along this tough journey ahead without there daddy. Sharing our story with others and helping someone else in a similar situation, is purpose in this pain.
I do not know your story and what you are going through. It may be that you have lost a loved one too, or you are facing a struggle with your health, your marriage or your work. Whatever challenge you are facing in this season, find purpose in it and let that purpose shift your perspective. When you find purpose, there you will find hope and peace and joy too.
Like the image I have used for this blog, I am reminded that we are broken people, living in a broken world, full of pain and hurt. Even though we are broken vessels like the egg shell, we aren’t just tossed aside and thrown away. God had picked us for such a time as this. He has called us by name. God picks us up in the palm of His hand. He loves and comforts us. He nurtures us so that we can bloom and find purpose and grow.
“For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”
Esther 4:14
You were born for such a time as this. You may not have chosen the path that you are on, I certainly did not choose this for my family, but it has happened. We are here now, living on this Earth. Perhaps finding our purpose in all this is what will keep us going, until one day too we reach the other side.
I pray that you will find purpose in your pain. That you will hold onto hope and find joy and peace in your struggles. May God bless you and may his face shine upon you today and always. In Jesus name, Amen.
